Wednesday, December 29, 2010

I am not scared of lions, tigers, and bears...

but I am scared of the unknown, change, getting my heart broken, failing, and losing people I love. Still, change is good for me, it is good for everyone.  Looking back at 2010, it was full of positive change, meeting new people, failing and then picking myself up again and challenging myself with every step. 

I got my heart broken, found something I believed in, lost it, and started over.  It was painful.  I let my guard down for nothing.  I had help of many friends who know what I went through.  He has no idea what he lost.  He wasn't the only one this year either, but it is hard letting myself trust people again even though months have passed.  I tried, but like always I sabotage myself so people won't get close.  I'll get back out there, when the time is right.

This year I also got back in touch with my older brother and sister which for me was, the best part of 2010, and although I am still trying to catch up on all the years lost it is never too late to get close.  I believe that.  One of my favorite days this year was the time my brother came to visit me in Davis after years of not talking.  We went to a few bars and just caught up the whole night.  He was afraid that after spending so many years away that I was going to hold some sort of resentment.  And although years before I was angry at him for never coming around, this year I was at a point where none of that mattered.  I was just happy to have my brother back.

My younger brother graduated high school, moved out and is now pursuing his passion at UTI in Sacramento.  He has also grown so much this year and I am loving the person he is becoming. 

In 2010 I failed my first class.  It was a hard blow to take especially since it was an English class which is my major.  I am not going to lie, I was irresponsible, missed my 8am discussion times, and did not read every single assignment.  Luckily I took the class pass/no pass if not it would have brought down my GPA tremendously.  Failing does not fly with me so I've been doing everything to do better in my classes while still maintaining a social life.    

I became close to Tiffany Lu & Krista Marcellino who will always have a special place in my heart.  Then I lost them when they graduated in June.  Let me just say that although I only had one year with these girls they will be my friends always because they are true, open, and accepting.  We went through so much that I will always have their back.  The rest of 2010 has not been the same since they have been gone. :/ Still, I am filled with much joy when I hear of the wonderful jobs they have gotten and how they are pursuing a better life for themselves.

My interest group is still going strong.  Cannot and will not give up on that dream.  The girls who are a part of the group are like family to me and there is no way in hell I would survive Davis without them. LOVE YOU BEEZIES!!

AMF was definitely my drink for 2010.  I drank it at every damn event I went to.  Even if I have toned down all the drinking I did before i still have one every now and then. NO WAY i will think of any other drink for 2010 than an AMF. That together with the song SHOTS!!!

In 2010 I turned 22, started getting a bit more focused on my future, and  finally decided that it isn't silly to pursue a career as an Italian teacher and I am going for it.  I know it is what I want to do so there is no stopping this girl. 

Finally, I had so many firsts this year that I simply cannot name them all.   

MAC Makeup




This is a silly post but I am not sure if you remember that since I started buying my own makeup I have been stictly a Sephora girl. Anyway, for Christmas my bro gave me a Macy's gift card because he heard I liked MAC Makeup. Truth is, I have not tried it ever even though I have wanted to try it for awhile now. So i figured, why not buy some now knowing that that was my brother's intention in the first place?

So I went to Macy's, waited for service -cuz you know they are always busy- and when the lady, Gina, finally came to help me she showed me a nice nude-shimmery lipstick just like I asked. She then proceeded to show me how to put it on as well as how to make my eyes look bigger, cuz y'all know I have some small eyes. Anyway, lets just say that I will definitely be going back. LOVE IT. Def my new fav. Sorry Sephora! Plus, they have lower prices! Who doesn't love that?

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Buon Natale

Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas filled with much joy, family, and friends. I hope everyone got what they asked for. I didn't care too much about receiving this year, although, my mother did buy me a camera and my older bro gave me a $50.00 gift card that i used to buy this . :)
Instead I took much joy in watching my family open their gifts. I put a lot of thought and effort this year in what I bought my family for Christmas. It felt good watching them open their gifts knowing I spent my hard earned cash on them to make them happy. Hope they know how much they mean to me and how much I truly love them.Here are a few pics of my Christmas. I was trying out the new camera but didn't take as many pictures as I would have liked. Oh well there is always next year. Merry Christmas. Thanks for your support always.

Mia♥


My cousins singing for us.

My parents with my sister and my two beautiful nieces

My mom and I

My Tia Julisa and my cousin Daniel

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Maria Elena

Today has been a shitty day. I went the whole day not thinking things through. My mind is in a whole different place. Plus, I am sick. I wish I could take some things back. But I cant. I guess no point in feeling shitty over things I cant change right? Silly girl.

Flaws, we all have them.

I miss my family. I miss my roommates. I miss my friends. Davis is so lonely. I am glad my time here is almost over...but I will miss work so much. I'm afraid for what's to come.

Now that I brought that up...JESUS WHERE ARE YOU?? For some reason you are the only one that makes me believe in myself. My deepest fear is that I will disappoint the kids. I am going to be compared to Vito who is only like the best Italian teacher EVER!

Silly insecurities I wish I didn't have. I miss home.

Friday, December 17, 2010

The Little Things That Make Me Smile

Adrian Osnaya you are one of my besties because....SO MANY REASONS RIGHT? Lol

But just wanted to let you know that you calling me while DRAKE was performing “Oh you fancy huh? You fancy huh?” made me feel so special. :) While two best friends were in San Jose @ Wild Jam I was stuck at work/ in Davis but you made me feel like I was right there too. :) Thank you and I love you
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Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Monday, December 13, 2010

Thursday, December 9, 2010

DAVIS Fall Quarter.

Now that I am practically on Winter Break I'll catch you up on my Fall Quarter at UCD.
(I dont remember in what order this all happened so um yeah.)

1. Cal v. Davis Tailgate in Berkeley. Yeah Cal won by HELLA. :(2. I went to the DC for my first time. Thank you Freshmen takes me. :)
3. Visited my people at Berkeley. Adrian, Edgar and Jesus were there too but these are my girls. :)
4. The Interested Ladies of Lambda Theta Alpha Latin Sorority at UC Davis had a few events.


5. Buddy #3 turned 22 on the 22nd :6. Had a Roomie Reunion with Tiff in SF. Krista was supposed to be there too pero... :/
7. I walked in the Sac Breast Cancer Walk. It felt rude to just walk around with a shirt that said I liked my boobies lol. So I like yours too ;)
8. Mujeres Ayudando La Raza retreat :) First time in Lake Tahoe!


Lots of other stuff happened too but I don't have a camera so most of these pics I got from other people. lol. I already showed you what my Halloween was like. :) Can't wait till Winter Quarter!!
♥Mia