Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Someone New

I was getting excited about wanting to get to know someone new. From what i know he seemed like he had everything I've been looking for. But last night's dream made me realize that it might not be why I am attracted to him.

The first time I saw him I did think he looked like JA. And I don't want to like someone because he reminds me of someone else. I don't want JA to be in the back of my mind when I am with him.

I thought it wouldn't be a problem but i guess I was wrong.

Last night's dream scared me. I thought I was ready to move on. It's been awhile. Then again i think it's the talk I had with Robert on Sat that triggered the dream. ahhhh....

I guess it's not gonna work out. =(

Monday, October 26, 2009

My Radar. <3

I HAVE BEEN PLAYING THIS SONG OVER AND OVER AGAIN BECAUSE IT REMINDS ME OF YOU. ;)


RADAR
Confidence is a must
Cockiness is a plus
Edginess is a rush
Edges (I like 'em rough)
A man with a Midas touch
Intoxicate me, I'm a lush
Stop you're making me blush
People are looking at us

I don't think you know (know)

I'm checking it so hot (so hot)
I Wonder if he knows he's on my radar (on my radar) on my radar (on my radar)
And if I notice you I know it's you. Choose you don't wanna lose you're on my radar (on my radar) on my radar (on my radar)

When you walk (when you walk) and when you talk (when you talk)
I get the tingle, I wanna mingle, that's what I want (that's what I want)
Hey, listen, baby, turn up the fader.. try to make you understand you're on my radar (on my radar) on my radar (on my radar)
On my radar (got you on my) radar (got you on my) radar (got you on my) RADAR

Interesting sense of style
Ten million dollar smile
Think I cant handle that
Animal in the sack
His eyes see right to my soul
I surrender self-control
Catch me looking again
Falling right into my plan..

I don't think you know (know)

I'm checking it so hot (so hot)
Wonder if he knows he's on my radar (on my radar) on my radar (on my radar)
And if I notice you I know it's you
Choose you don't wanna lose you're on my radar (on my radar) on my radar (on my radar)
When you walk (when you walk) and when you talk (when you talk)
I get the tingle, I wanna mingle, that's what I want (that's what I want)
Hey, listen, baby, turn up the fader.. try to make you understand you're on my radar (on my radar)
on my radar (on my radar)

on my radar (got you on my) radar (got you on my) radar (got you on my) RADAR
on my radar (got you on my) radar (got you on my) radar (got you on my) RADAR

I got my eye on you... and I cant let you get away...

Hey baby whether it's now or later (I've got you)
you cant shake me (no)
cause I got you on my radar
Whether you like it or not, it ain't gonna stop
cause I got you on my radar (I've got you)
cause I got you on my radar

I'm checking it so hot (so hot)
Wonder if he knows he's on my radar (on my radar) on my radar (on my radar)
And if I notice you I know it's you. Choose you don't wanna lose you're on my radar (on my radar) on my radar (on my radar)
When you walk (when you walk) and when you talk (when you talk)
I get the tingle, I wanna mingle, that's what I want (that's what I want)
Hey, listen, baby, turn up the fader... try to make you understand you're on my radar (on my radar)
on my radar (on my radar)
on my radar (got you on my) radar (got you on my) radar (got you on my) RADAR
on my radar (got you on my) radar (got you on my) radar (got you on my) RADAR


Thursday, October 22, 2009

FAIL! + SCORE

So I got my first paper back this week and I bombed it! I got a C- on a paper I was confident on. It really bummed me out. I even got off work early that day. That same day I was late for my LTA MANDATORY meeting. I missed the bus by like 35 seconds. That got my even more bummed.

The week eventually got better. I received my first paycheck and I had a roomie hang out night that involved Hookah, Tequila and Britney. <3

I also went shopping yesterday and spent a good amount of $$$. I finally got my pink Coach wristlet that i have been wanting. I also got a cute purple sweater from American Eagle. I went with Nayeli. I really needed my shopping therapy. I <3 having a job. =]

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Strolling Competition

Today i went to the strolling competition with the interests and it was lots of fun. We took an hour and a half road trip. There were many sororities and frats there. I also got to see Jesus perform. It was awesome. =]

I got to know the girls a little more and i'm glad this is the org im looking into. i think its a perfect fit. God is good to me. =]

Todavia

Sin Bandera
Que Lloro
Quedate un momento asi no mires
hacia mi que no podre aguantar
si clavas tu mirada que me llena
el cuerpo me ha pasado antes que
no puedo hablar tal vez pienses
que estoy loco y es verdad un
poco tengo que aceptar pero si
no te explico lo que siento dentro
no vas a entender cuando me veas llorar.

Nunca me senti tan solo como cuando
ayer de pronto lo entendi mientras
callaba la vida me dijo a gritos que
nunca te tuve y nunca te perdi y me
explicaba que el amor es una cosa
que se da de pronto en forma natural
lleno de fuego si la fuerza se marchita
sin tener principio llega su final.
Ahora tal vez lo puedas entender que
si me tocas se quema mi piel, ahora

tal vez lo puedas entender y no
te vuelvas si no quieres ver que
lloro por ti, que lloro sin ti que
ya lo entendi que no eres para mi y lloro.

Nunca me senti tan solo como cuando ayer
de pronto lo entendi mientras callaba
la vida me dijo a gritos que nunca te
tuve y nunca te perdi y me explicaba
que el amor es una cosa que se da
de pronto en forma natural lleno de
fuego si la fuerza se marchita sin
tener principio llega su final.Ahora
tal vez lo puedas entender que si me
tocas se quema mi piel, ahora tal vez
lo puedas entender y no te vuelvas si
no quieres ver que lloro por ti, que
lloro sin ti, que ya lo entendi que
no eres para mi y lloro.

Que lloro por ti, que lloro sin ti que
ya lo entendi que no eres para mi y lloro


Thursday, October 15, 2009

UPDATE

So it's been a busy couple of weeks and so much has gone down.


First of all, i recenty started to look into a certain organization at school. It's going great so far. Great way to meet new people. I happen to be social chair and i get to plan events. I love it.


Second of all, got a job! I work at a law firm now. I type. thats pretty much it. although, my roomie krista works with me too! shes awesome. =] ok thats it.


I also had papers due this week, two to be exact, and they resulted in my first all nighters. it was most def a new experience. but i loved pushing myself.


There is probably more i should say but im tired. haha.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Sick! =(

People are getting sick everywhere! I am usually a healthy person but this is the second time since school started that I've been getting sick! I am tired and am now behind in school. Great. I better catch up. On an interesting note. I got an interview =]. I hope I get the job because it would be a great experience. I should practice my typing. But I am not gonna lie, I am really good. lol.

Again, Mia has pushed love aside.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Rejection is NOT cool. Plez don't let it stop you from moving on. =]

The long love that in my thought doth harbor
The long love that in my thought doth harbor,
And in mine heart doth keep his residence,
Into my face presseth with bold pretense
And therein campeth, spreading his banner.
She that me learned to love and suffer
And will that my trust and lost’s negligence
Be reined by reason, shame, and reverence,
With his hardiness taketh displeasure.
wherewith drawl unto the heart’s forest he fleeth,
Leaving his enterprise with pain and cry,
And there him hideth, and not appeareth.
What may I do when my master feareth,
But in the field with him to live and die?
For good is the life ending faithfully.

I used to be like this once. I thought I was going to love the same person forever even if he no longer felt the same way. When he left I was in this “no one can replace him” faze. Even if nice guys came by I always compared them to him. I was being “faithful” to not only him but to the love I felt was pure that I felt for him. I think it was harder letting go to that love than it was letting go to him.

I really hope that with Wyatt saying “For good is the life ending faithfully” He doesn’t mean that he will remain faithfully for eternity. He deserves to find himself a girl who really cares for him. We all deserve a second chance. We have to be open to the possibility. Of finding love again. Hopefully he is just saying that the relationship is now ending faithfully although, I doubt it.

Give yourself a second chance to love people. Love is a beautiful thing. =]

........i should take my own advice! hahaha.